It suddenly feels normal to experience loneliness, which then I prefer it more. The cold room and the bitterness of life. Mixing it up and never letting go.
I don’t know how to dismantle the emptiness. The heavy atmosphere that surrounds me in a veil. My inability to do more, my throat that goes dry every time I try to speak.
These things, that suffocated you.
Will it ever go away?
If I need to start my gratitude list for this year, maybe I need to start with Kawung Living and how I run the business this year. I don’t know if there’s anyone who wants to talk this kind of sensitive things to the public. Most of the time, I avoid the talks and only giving a surface answer when someone asked. I mean, when you run a business people would love to talk either they success story and/or how they struggle with it. There is no one telling me how hard is too hard and what is the definition of success. Some people also want to look happy doing a business, some kind of proof that they are doing the right choice. This year, I learn that sharing things with other people is not always toxic. I hope writing this down would be some kind of stress reliever and a proof that whatever choice we take, all we need to do is trying our best. There is no shortcut or anything easy about it.
There’s a rumor that The Queen’s Teardrop is now being sold on the black market. Price starts from 1.000.000 gold coins, an amount of price equals of a month of food supply for the Bottom Neighborhood.
You may ask what The Queen’s Teardrop actually is, but you will get a pretty blunt answer. The Queen’s Teardrop is actually The Queen’s tears in a glass drop. It’s widely known that a few months ago, The Princess suddenly run away with some Knight from a foreign country. Cannot contain the sadness and the sudden departure, The Queen has locked herself in the chamber and never stopped crying ever since.
The period between Christmas and New Year usually is the most ‘uncertain’ one. It’s like hanging between two close holidays. Unlike 2016 which felt really fast, 2017 is running really slow for me. Looking back, I did many things and also lost as much. Anyway, these are things that caught up my eyes lately.
To be honest, I have these things with ceramic. I’ve been collecting local ceramic products for these past years and really happy when I visited Dib(uang) Sayang at Kineruku earlier this year. I’ve been taking home products from Kar Jewelry, Tacit, and others. I also never missed any Clearance & Reject Sale from Tekuni. So, finding Lisa Junius’ works is an instant joy. I love the perfect indigo products and the dreamy vibe that comes from it. I fell in love with these vases and these are certainly my favorite of them all.
(image from here)
Having struggled with ulcers as a result of the high presence of gastric acid (baca: maag akut) these past days made me forgetting this fun challenge. This should be my last post of #7daysofblackandwhite, which I really enjoy because I get to see many lives in a different way. Though I hate not seeing colors or not getting a chance to write any caption, I agree that taking pictures in black and white made you a little bit melancholic at times (I actually wrote all captions on this blog and you can see all my posts for the past 7++ days here :P).