//October 28, 2010//

Being obvious is not my safety belt. Sometimes, I don’t want to be read by people. It is selfish because to the contrary, I always want to read people’s mind. So, it’s kind of uncomfortable when people know that I love yellow and red or the fact that I love rainbow and blackcurrant candy. People keep sending me gift containing those two colors. I’ve got myself a yellow notes, doll, and flowers this past week. I don’t mean I hate it, but sometimes it tickles my common sense why do I become too predictable. I guess, I’m just being selfish this time.

//October 27, 2010//

I’ve been throwing chances and God knows maybe I’ll be regret later. But if I have to pick one thing that I’ve been learning for all my 23 years of living, it is a lesson about never regretting a single thing about your own choices. So as today, I place my own bet.

//October 25, 2010//

People have limits, I see one today. Anger, once again, is a strong word. I’ve been past that kind of word since sometimes ago and I’m glad I’m over it. I don’t want to be judgmental and skeptical again. It’s true that world doesn’t seem that kind of bright but it doesn’t look that dark also. Happiness doesn’t come in one package, maybe you get it one by one in a small bucket. People tend to describe happiness by something you got from people, or something you achieve. But for me, happiness is simply something I have. I’m happy when I got a glass of water after a long march. I’m happy when people print out my photos with an ugly face. I’m happy when I got to greet some unknown children in the street. I’m happy when I see myself in the mirror and find my huge healthy cheek. Maybe it is easy to be happy with people in your sides, but the truth is, it is easier to be happy with yourself. It is simply because you are the one who decides your own happiness.

//October 25, 2010//

Being idealist is not always easy. Sometimes you deal with the temptation, sometimes you deal with people who doesn’t stand about your thoughts. Being idealist is a choice. It’s like you choose to be main stream or choose to be those so called indie. Sometimes, I choose being main stream and it is okay. As long as you’re happy, that’s alright. The only problem with idealist people is (sometimes) they don’t listen. They don’t open their mind towards any other thoughts and any other angles. Sometimes, they close the conversation by saying “that’s just any other angle, so don’t bother”. Oh dear, it’s so last decade.

You can label yourself by being idealist, but don’t try to label others if they’re not walking on the same path that you walk on. It’s (once again) a choice, a serious choice. Don’t irritate others with your so called idealism and blaming them by their choices.

Being idealist is not always easy, it is hard. But being idealist who listens is way harder.