In the mood to make collages and color schemes. Hoping to make something out of it later.
You know, I love gymnastic routine. It is one of those things that I randomly like to watch on ESPN (along with cheerleading championship).
Especially rhythmic gymnastic ♥
And aside from that, ballet routine is slightly the same thing, but with softer vibes.
I would love to try using this pastel scheme someday. What have been inspired you lately?
The hazel sky and all the skyscrapers.
You barely remember you’re even there.
There is a time that you’re being conscious of the reason you’re in at first.
There is a realization that we might get a hold of this all.
The repetition and the fear.
The fear of every little things and some bigger ones.
There is no mountain high enough, you repeat that to yourself.
Much enough that you forget what’s the meaning behind all the encouragement.
And start a new day.
Maybe the same day.
In constant replay.
We might get a hold of this all, you repeat that to yourself.
This time you’re not sure what’s the meaning behind it all.
But you keep showing up every day.
Maybe it’s a sign that you aware of all the blessing.
Maybe it’s a sign of not knowing how to feel about it all.
Yet, we are here.
Showing up.
In constant replay.
There is a storm coming.
Closer.
A storm that eats the heart out of people.
Or empathy.
It keeps eating and eating.
Until the only one left, is ego.
And now, nothing can stop that storm.
It is closer than anything else.
Some people think they are better than everybody else. It is like how most parents said that attending science class is better than social class in high school. It is like how some people are full of themselves on getting to Oil & Gas company while other get a job in banking. It is like how some people are proud to answer a name of government’s company when some relatives asked where you work. It is like how piss some people are when there is other person who prefers K-Pop than indie music. It is like how most of us always think.
It is not entirely wrong since maybe that is how people appreciate things. But that is when it’s entirely wrong because that is not how other people appreciate things. We are nothing than a dust in the universe. Take all the ornaments and you’re no different than any other.
People are made from different kind of formula, they are not a mold that gives the same result in the same situation. Even mold cracks. People are people, the most treasured things on humanity is our differences. It is a pity that we degraded our value by how many likes we get or how much attention we received by others. It is a pity that we compared our success and our failure with others. It is a pity that we think that our value are better than any other people. While the truth is, nothing stays with you when you’re dead. And there is already a judgement waiting you ahead.
For me, Ramadhan is about spending time with family. There is no greater joy than spending the evening with the thoughts of the day from each of the family member at the dining table. I was able to only eating out once until now. As I get older it is a luxury to have a quality time with friends and family, as we distant ourselves between work, routines, and everything else. Time is always a blessing. Now that I have more time at home and having much more conversation with my family, I started to feel all of this, are more like blessing.
Besides that, I’m actually experience a sleeping habit problem. I cannot sleep before 2 or 3 AM in the morning while I need to get up at 3.30 AM. It is problematic since after my morning prayer, I can only sleep up to 3 hours at the longest. I cannot sleep more than that actually. Some says, dreaming awake is better than dreaming with your eyes closed, haha. But thanks to the insomnia, this happened.
One of the things that I have been giving more attention to lately, is managing my budget. I was an impulsive buyer (maybe still am?). But now with unfixed income (and some small installments still left), I need to separate what is important and what is not. So, instead of buying things here and there I started making lists and collages about all the things that I want (and still not what I need, haha).
Here are some of the things that I have yearns for years or just laid my heart into lately.
