I want to pack 3 shirts and a sweater. 5 instant noodles and a pouch of skincare in traveling size.
I want to have an empty water bottle and couple of socks.
Maybe an extra pair of pants and umbrella (because the weather has been unpredictable lately).

I want to pack and go.
Somewhere alone, without music and the notifications.

I don’t know if I will still be hurt, because it’s complete darkness no matter where I look.
It’s like running away (and I don’t care).
The same thing like how much I eat these past days (and still feel nothing) or how deft I am with all these noises.
Every day is like a constant battle. With myself. With the surrounding and the noises.

I really want to pack and go. 
Somewhere alone, without the sadness and the pain.

It suddenly feels normal to experience loneliness, which then I prefer it more. The cold room and the bitterness of life. Mixing it up and never letting go.

I don’t know how to dismantle the emptiness. The heavy atmosphere that surrounds me in a veil. My inability to do more, my throat that goes dry every time I try to speak.

These things, that suffocated you.

Will it ever go away?

There’s a rumor that The Queen’s Teardrop is now being sold on the black market. Price starts from 1.000.000 gold coins, an amount of price equals of a month of food supply for the Bottom Neighborhood.

You may ask what The Queen’s Teardrop actually is, but you will get a pretty blunt answer. The Queen’s Teardrop is actually The Queen’s tears in a glass drop. It’s widely known that a few months ago, The Princess suddenly run away with some Knight from a foreign country. Cannot contain the sadness and the sudden departure, The Queen has locked herself in the chamber and never stopped crying ever since.

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