It’s October, 13^th! I think I’d be lying to you if I say that I do well of completing the #28postsfor28 challenge. I failed :)) I wrote 18 out of 28 posts (including this post), and I feel guilty every time I left the day with nothing to post about. Sometimes, I find a reason to not post a thing because it is half-written or it has ton of grammar mistakes. Or maybe it is just like my life. I always want to achieve things, researched deeper, planned carefully, but in a matter of fact, not really wanting it. So I find a reason to fail, a way to escape. Anyway, this self-challenge is a good exercise to force myself to start writing again. Though I expect more poetic line or deeper thoughts, I like what I wrote this past month. Cheers to the rest of the year, cheers to write more and worry less. Read all posts of #28postsfor28 here.

The other day I was debating to delete a Categories in this blog called Ramblings. There are 51 blog posts categorized in Ramblings, and the latest one is dated back on 2012. When I kept scrolling to read it, I laughed a lot. I think, I already past a certain era of angst-teenager-slash-college-graduate-who-always-has-a-certain-ideal-about-life. On one of the post, I wrote “I am a judgmental person and I judge a lot.” Oh my, I think I’m ready to write a grunge song out of that. Maybe that is why I still keeping the tagline shallow and mad. Maybe it supposed to be saying too shallow and too mad. By the way, this one title Being Cynical Series is one of my favorite :))

Yeah, I think I used to get mad at the world and the reality it holds within. As if I’m not ready to face the consequences of me throwing a bunch of idealistic picture of how I suppose to run my life. When I read all those posts, I occasionally awed that I still have all those thoughts with a much more different processing thoughts now. I still considered myself as an idealist, but I’m not on the berserk-mode anymore :))

I think what shaped me and made me seeing better is when I meet a person who has the same way of thinking. I try to find out, is the thought annoying? Is this person annoying? Do I annoy people as much this person annoy me? It’s a good exercise on how you assess yourself amongst people. It is another way around when I met people who has different way of thinking. I thought of every possible reasons to get to the same opinion, so I can understand their thought process.

So there you go, the Ramblings post category is no more. But since I find out that the ability to laugh at yourself is an important one, I will keep them tagged on Ramblings. Maybe in the future I will meet an era of mother-who-always-complains or worker-who-never-satisfy-with-their-payroll and start to write some angry lines again. Oh, am I being cynical again now? :))

Anyway, since tomorrow is public holiday and I’m just a few days away from graduated out of the 27 club, let’s post more!

Good night, the night time worshipper.

Growing up in Jakarta at the 90s, it is a luxury to have a private car. Nowadays, people seems to have their own car and occasionally commute or using other apps based transportation to save time in traffic. I always say that commuting takes big part of my way of thinking. I like to commute. Most of the time it’s not the easier option, nor the quickest way to the destination. But this is where I get to meet some faces.

Jakarta has been a melting pot for a lot of faces and it is maybe the most redeeming thing about the city. Some say that if you can handle Jakarta just fine, you literally can handle any other places in the world.

I admit that nowadays I spend a lot of time on the internet, especially when I commute. I think I do quite well on filtering things I don’t need. I don’t follow people who will only give negative effect and try to stay away from too much drama. But sometimes, I can’t help it and I throw curses too many times.

When I get tired about all of that and look up to the entire sea of people, I realized this is the view that matters. The real faces of the city, or maybe the country. They don’t ask for permission to Repath things and doesn’t care a thing about Like button. These people get up early, most of them go out when the dark still lurk and get home when the sun already sets. These are faces that matters. They’re angry if the bus doesn’t come on time, they give help without expecting something in return. No one pretends to be someone else.

Next time you go angry at those faceless mob on the internet, remember the spell. Channel your energy for things that matter. Give the attention to people who need it the most. Let’s live more and give more.