Saya senang punya teman-teman baik di ujung jari yang bisa diajak berdiskusi dan berbicara tentang hal sepele ataupun hal-hal yang menarik. Tentang tes psikotes, tentang emoticon sok imut (:3 atau :*), ataupun tentang artikel yang membanggakan Pertamina (which is totally meaningless).

Di angkutan umum yang membawa saya pulang sore ini, saya diajak berbincang tentang Indonesia.

Topik awalnya tentang artikel Anies Baswedan di Kompas hari ini, para pesohor dunia maya pasti sudah pernah membaca (atau mungkin skimming, atau meng-RT kutipan quote-nya di timeline mereka :P). Lalu berlanjut menjadi perbandingan zaman orde baru dan ‘saat ini’. Harga-harga memang naik drastis, tidak diimbangi dengan pendapatan per kapita yang tidak begitu berubah, tetapi teknologi dan kebebasan berpendapat maju pesat, perbandingan menjadi kian timpang, dan kerangka acuan menjadi semu. Walaupun harga pendidikan semakin mahal, setidaknya beberapa orang tahu bahwa ada yang salah dengan semua ini. Ada sesuatu yang harus diubah. Hal yang membuat saya sedikit lega, bukti nyata bahwa masyarakat semakin cerdas.

Di semua hujatan tentang dunia ‘saat ini’, menyala kembali sebuah lentera kecil. Lentera kecil yang berbisik pelan bahwa ia ingin menjadi besar tanpa perlu menyalahkan keadaan dan mengulang masa lalu. Ia ingin berteman dengan lentera-lentera lain dan tidak ingin membandingkan waktu. Malahan, ia ingin berteman dengan Sang Waktu. Karena kepadanyalah ia siap menanti. Suatu momen ketika perubahan dibutuhkan, ketika sang lentera siap menyalakan lentera-lentera lainnya.

Setelah turun dari angkutan umum, hujan turun perlahan. Saya memilih berjalan kaki dan menerobos hujan, meletakkan jaket merah saya di kepala. Hujan semakin deras, dan gelapnya malam telah menyapa. Di sepanjang jalan, saya melihat ke bawah, kepada derasnya aliran air yang melewati sela-sela kaki saya sesekali kepada gemerlapnya bulir hujan atau pendar lampu rumah-rumah sekitar. Ketika sampai di depan gerbang rumah, saya menengadah ke langit untuk kesekian kalinya di malam itu dan kembali menatap tanah.

Tanah ini masih terlihat indah walau dalam gelap.

Izinkan aku untuk tetap menjadi anakmu.

Selamat malam, tanah tercinta.

Sorry for being a freak.

People know how I love Blink 182.

And I shed tears.

For almost 8 years, for the break up, for the incident, for the Warped Tour, for the new single and (soon) for the new album.

Cheers.

Everyone’s cross to bears the crown they wear on endless holiday.
Everyone raises kids in a world that changes life to a bitter game.
Everyone works and fights, stays up all night to celebrate the day.
And everyone lives to tell the tale of how we die alone some day.

Up All Night – Blink 182

It is funny how the life brings you to another level of life complexion. I don’t remember having a personal conversation with my friend questioning when will I get married or what color of kebaya I will wear.

Until last week.

I went to July Graduation, where all the heart breaks. Because certain people are leaving some behind, for better and good. Graduation always feels sad and exhausted, because even when you do nothing there’s certain emotion that sucks you up. Whether it’s sadness, satisfaction (or dissatisfaction), or maybe real happiness :)

Rain dropped hard, but the celebration became merrier. Congratulation is maybe just another shortcut for saying take care of yourself, this is going to be hard (yet fun), be strong. So, I went to hug one of the person I care about, since years ago. His name is Zulfikry—the odd cool guy. The charismatic one of a kind character.

How the number becomes smaller :P

One of the card that went unsent (I promise to give you the cards the next time we’ll meet)

I know we’ll still share the same laugh or another story. And I still remember that you’ll secure me the VIP invitation to your wedding day :)) Have a good graduation day, Zulfikry!

Semua orang tahu rasanya kekurangan.

Tapi betapa sulitnya berkata cukup dan betapa mudahnya menginginkan lebih.

Every morning on my office’s pantry, I use to make a cup of tea, simply to live up the day. But there’s always  a new magic when you’re adding the chemicals. 3 spoons of sugar will taste different than adding 2 and a half spoon and then the half of the spoon. It’s like meeting a new person every day, there’s always a new drama, and a new perspective.

I don’t know what’s up with the life their having. But the sum of it, sometimes appear at the surface, no matter how good they covered it up.

As I grow up, I do think I see many faces of the world. Not as many as some people are (because I’ve never met an African or an Arabian nor sharing a snack with them). But the time when I get the chance to know someone, I’ll try to appreciate it. By a little chat, a little laugh, and some thoughts sharing. Now, here I am. A fresh graduate.

I try to make friends with people who is also a fresh graduate, trying to understand what they see in life, how their perspective are, how wise they see the world and finally, how well they know the word ‘enough’. I know out there, there are so many jobs that have bigger paid with way better benefit. But the one I’m having now is surely more than enough for me. Why saying that? Because with lack of experience and smaller brain than the others, what I can do right now is to be thankful. For the chance to step into this world, for the opportunity to learn about life itself. The outside world is crazy, as well as a lot of people who always wanting more than what they’re having. What’s up with the moral, if you’re just after the salary? Where’s the eagerness to learn, if you’re just after the pride? Yes, I do know nothing but I’m here to understand. After all, I’m not the only one living in this coalition of dust.

You’re just as precious as others. The beauty of the world, which made the tea magical. The tasteful chemicals.

Personally, I say thank you rather than hate you. This is another chance to know you guys, to understand the perspective. And when I’m done, I know I’ll be wiser. That is the way the Warrior of Light would definitely do.

Hello, people. Let me make you a pot of tea and just let the heart talk :)