To be honest, 2011 is like a blink of an eye—flashing but somehow calming. It is a year of denial for me, there are a lot of things I have to fake just to look normal. To follow the stream is never be my safest belt. To calm myself and finally found peace is an okay phase for me, because I know there will be another that would come and messed up things up. Jamie is right, Twenty Something would never be easy on you.
But my wish for 2011 did come true, I am happy.
At January I got myself busy, in my own way, trying to get a job. Lots of failure.
At February to April I earned my first of coins, tried to find a way to save the world, and I went on a short trip to Solo and Jogja.
At May, I got my first real job, too bad it is related to engineering :)) Got new friends, new people to make joke with, to laugh together at funny words with, to play Yugi-oh card game online together with, to take picture at helipad with, etc. Having friends are always wonderful ♥. The rest of the months are flowing pretty much the same. Paperworks and deadlines. A cup of tea in the morning. A fingerprint scan in the afternoon. Zombie life, perhaps? Unfortunately, I refuse to that, I still wanted to take the best of life. I learned about a lot things. It’s like taking Semester Pendek of my whole college academic life, sometimes got me headache but yeah I need to continue to live :P And I started a scholarship program with friends from my college major, it pretty much keep my spirit up. Wish us luck on our first selection process.
At November and December, I got my first site visit to Tiaka at Sulawesi. The first artificial island at Indonesia made above coral (fun facts! Try to Google ‘Tiaka’ and you will find lots of frightening news related about the riot happened back there, still surreal I just happened to step there). And finally at December I went to Ujung Pangkah at East Java. Saw ‘tanks as big as Gelora Bung Karno’ and a pantry with limitless supply of hot Milo :))
I’m still fighting myself about these growing-old-things. A vacancy with bigger salary and benefit, a scholarship abroad, high heels, make-up, an invitation wedding, screw it! Why rushing?
But I’m still having fun and I guess that’s the key
I’m a twenty something and I’ll keep being me
Twenty Something – Jamie Cullum
To finally found a slight of light, and happiness, it feels comforting. Yes, I still refuse growing old. I freeze my sanity here, I will keep those bubble of dreams (and lots of surreal movies). Like as I always said, keep the children inside of you. And then let them fly, like a boss :)
Happy (short) holiday.
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And for 2012, I propose for a year full of decorating future world. And I promise you, it will be full of (the obvious) rainbow glimpse and a splash of gold. One of the targets? Maybe buying my first Lego set and make a fortress out of it :D