Give me a minute, I’m good.
Give me an hour, I’m great.
Give me six months, I’m unbeatable.
– Col. John ‘Hannibal’ Smith (The A-Team, 2010)
Words are powerful, and when you got to hear sentences like these. Chilled, is just another expression. For some other time, rejection maybe hard and painful. But, I keep reminding myself that I use to face this kind of time, I use to face rejection. The one thing that I hold on time to time, is the will to keep on dreaming, to get to the goal.
I’ve experienced this kind of time. When I was rejected becoming the project leader of Dokumentasi Wisuda Oktober 2007. I was falling hard that time, and it was such a big blow. Come Wisuda April 2008, I became resisted to what I believe. Seeing people come to do the interview, I don’t want to rush things, beside I felt much more incapable of doing thing. But then again, the dream stayed alive. I kept on learning. About myself, the do’s and the dont’s, the why and the how. Exactly 9 months after October, I signed up again.
On June 2008, I was assigned to be the project leader of Dokumentasi Wisuda Juli 2008.
Thing is, I knew. I fully understanded that the other candidates were way brilliant than I am, way creative, way talented, way gifted. But I just knew, I worked harder than everybody else, I learned much more than anybody else. That time, only one word passed across my head:
I was invincible.
I still want to become that person. I want to become that invincible. But yeah, the cold nightmare still creeps beneath me and for many obvious reason I want to break down or simply, disappear. But then again, I want to believe in me. To those far away dream, and the path to get closer to it. Closing March, with kisses and strawberry fragrance :)