2012, well yes, a new year.

What come across me actually for this year? Except for the Lego set, nothing (I even sometimes doubt do I really want a Lego set instead of the train set and/or a Buzz Lightyear action figure). There are actually some plans, but it is rather blurred and somewhat surreal. I kept trying to write what achievement I would make for this year, but I ended up writing stuff I want to buy instead. Somewhat, pathetic.

What changes a year can make, well, I found myself rather more pessimistic than last year. A lot of failure really gives you scar, you know. But yeah, I really want to make that change once more. There, I found one. Be more optimistic about life.

The rest follows, write more in a proper manner and grammar including movie review or transportation system issue. Giving more in my league, in my way. Take chances of all possibilities, without feeling envy about other people’s life.

Just carry on.

To be honest, 2011 is like a blink of an eye—flashing but somehow calming. It is a year of denial for me, there are a lot of things I have to fake just to look normal. To follow the stream is never be my safest belt. To calm myself and finally found peace is an okay phase for me, because I know there will be another that would come and messed up things up. Jamie is right, Twenty Something would never be easy on you.

But my wish for 2011 did come true, I am happy.

At January I got myself busy, in my own way, trying to get a job. Lots of failure.

At February to April I earned my first of coins, tried to find a way to save the world, and I went on a short trip to Solo and Jogja.

At May, I got my first real job, too bad it is related to engineering :)) Got new friends, new people to make joke with, to laugh together at funny words with, to play Yugi-oh card game online together with, to take picture at helipad with, etc. Having friends are always wonderful ♥. The rest of the months are flowing pretty much the same. Paperworks and deadlines. A cup of tea in the morning. A fingerprint scan in the afternoon. Zombie life, perhaps? Unfortunately, I refuse to that, I still wanted to take the best of life. I learned about a lot things. It’s like taking Semester Pendek of my whole college academic life, sometimes got me headache but yeah I need to continue to live :P And I started a scholarship program with friends from my college major, it pretty much keep my spirit up. Wish us luck on our first selection process.

At November and December, I got my first site visit to Tiaka at Sulawesi. The first artificial island at Indonesia made above coral (fun facts! Try to Google ‘Tiaka’ and you will find lots of frightening news related about the riot happened back there, still surreal I just happened to step there). And finally at December I went to Ujung Pangkah at East Java. Saw ‘tanks as big as Gelora Bung Karno’ and a pantry with limitless supply of hot Milo :))

I’m still fighting myself about these growing-old-things. A vacancy with bigger salary and benefit, a scholarship abroad, high heels, make-up, an invitation wedding, screw it! Why rushing?

But I’m still having fun and I guess that’s the key

I’m a twenty something and I’ll keep being me

Twenty Something – Jamie Cullum

To finally found a slight of light, and happiness, it feels comforting. Yes, I still refuse growing old. I freeze my sanity here, I will keep those bubble of dreams (and lots of surreal movies). Like as I always said, keep the children inside of you. And then let them fly, like a boss :)

Happy (short) holiday.

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And for 2012, I propose for a year full of decorating future world. And I promise you, it will be full of (the obvious) rainbow glimpse and a splash of gold. One of the targets? Maybe buying my first Lego set and make a fortress out of it :D

It is finally December. The mighty one. If I’m being asked what the best song to portray December perfectly is, it would certainly be Desember by Efek Rumah Kaca.

I’m not recapping 2011 (yet), so I just give you things I like/love lately.

Descign is a brand focusing in Science and Education. It is holding the mission to introduce Science by its funny lines and fancy design. As a die hard fans of children encyclopedia I love Descign. Founded in late 2011 by two ITB’s Biology student and it just launched its first T-shirt collection (which I already order two instantly :P).

Here’s one of the illustration from their website.

Victoria’s Secret Show 2011 features Maroon 5 with their latest hip song ‘Moves Like Jagger’, which sometimes I doubt whether people singing along with this song knows who Jagger is. My favorite wings (once again) come from PINK collection, where they put the colorful neon in heart and wing shape. And it is official that Behati Prinsloo (the one in the middle) is my next star struck ♥. Visit her mini gallery here where she displays her photographs in black and white.

Dianna Agron has been everybody’s favorite Glee clubbers and personally, one of my crush. I suddenly don’t feel that bad anymore after cutting my hair short after seeing Agron’s gorgeous hair :P

YouMeandCharlie is a website full of inspiration where Agron shares her writing, photos, sketch, and everything to inspire others. Although I sometimes lost focus on the scattered main layout web, I still love the website. And here I quote Agron words that certainly made my day.

… I am a SF-bred girl who would live my entire life down the rabbit hole in a world of nonsense, but due to the low probability of me ever finding that damn hole, I use my vivid imagination every day and refuse to ever truly grow up. Not all the way! That wouldn’t be fun! Why not embrace a life like Peter? I love what I do, I love to see a smile turn a smile turn a smile. Life is too short, too melancholy for some. I’d like to try to diffuse that as much as I can. I am only one, but together we are so much more.

Cheers to December, to life, to you ♥

When being asked to fill a recruitment  form or even email sign up form, all of you must have been asked what is your gender. Have you ever thought why ‘Female’ choices always come after ‘Male’ (even in drop down menu) though ‘F’ comes way before ‘M’ in the alphabet? I do.

When it comes to gender equality at work, obviously I never give a damn thought about it. As I wrote before, I believe there’s thing made to do for a man and a woman, and sometimes I leave it as it is. In the case of my field of work, sometimes there’s really a bold line to everything. My friend sometimes whines at her timeline how people see woman to be inferior on this industry. I can’t blame it even though I don’t believe it.

While it is a common thing to do for my fellow male co-worker to work overtime, I never work overtime during weekdays simply because I avoid using public transportation late at night (the traffic and the high number of criminality have been around, so you know). I don’t stop there. As the replacement, I got to work earlier than my fellow co-worker (I usually arrived at work 1.5 hours earlier than my office hour) or sometimes I finish my works at home (though I avoided this one too), and I catch up to things.

The thing is I don’t get my gender equality, because obviously I don’t want it. I don’t want to be treated equally, because certainly I’m doing things differently. So why would I need the same treatment? But I believe by doing the works my way, I got the same respect than my other fellow male co-worker got. I do, and that’s what matters, to show the same capability I have.  By having those so called respect, then I’m quite sure that I will be having the opportunity.

And here’s what they all talk about. It is the opportunity what this gender equality is all about.

I got lucky when I finally got a site visit to Sulawesi and then East Java to see the ‘real world’. To finally touch things I see on pictures and 2D drawings, or maybe things I overheard. I know my company is being too kind to give a chance to female employee conducting a site visit. I’m not sure either if I’m being the last resort (because certainly nobody can attend the site visit, ‘oh well then you go’). But then again, my total 8 days of site visit cannot be compared to my cubicle male friend who’s on his 4^th month already got a 1.5 months visit to be an engineer on site on the completion of the running project. And once again, I can’t blame it.

Although the number of female engineers on my company can be count by hand (one hand actually), I don’t see the light will ever fade on me. Everybody has different ground to shine, to question that we need to be treat equally is a waste of time. Well, I really don’t see the time when people grab the opportunity from me. Because when they do, I just pity them. I pretty much believe with the sentence “if you don’t get one, then make one“. And I know, I will be having better

because I don’t need permission to jump… or fly :)