I’ve never celebrated New Year, I just happen to grilled some seafood with my family and drinking orange juice while watching movie marathon galore on local television. But anyway, Happy New Year.

2011, yeah finally I had some plan. Goals, to be exact. You know, sometimes inspiration doesn’t struck you. You have to force it. C’mon, force doesn’t always bad. It is the Jedi good luck charm.

The goals are small, with short term deadline. Although, some details of the goal is still blurred, it is including taking driving license, writing more, rambling less, having my own room and painting rainbow on the walls. Ah, and also some trips. I’ll be saving more and maybe losing some weight :P Those all about the first part of 2011 that I want to achieve. On July, I want to dream big. So let’s make this 6 months worth it.

If we track back to 2008 when I started sharing my words to the wired, I’ve been loyal to the name yellowandred and I’ve been using diaryland ever since. Diaryland is enough for me. The website isn’t in the radar and it is simple although the dashboard is rather complicated. It is a blogging platform that suited me the best for its ability to make a custom CSS and HTML of your website from scratch. I get a complete control of everything and that’s just what I wanted. So I’ve been taking pledge with Diaryland. The only thing that was lacking is its ability to archive previous posts and the commenting system. I’ve been using some free comment platform and suddenly changed them to chat board. But it doesn’t bother me for these years.

After almost three years, I need a change. The world is changing, as well as people. Even ground is changing. Truth is, there’s thing that won’t change.

It stays.

2008 is nice, but 2011 is like a fast forward for me. I’ve got my Bachelor degree last year and I’m taking a whole new life. As forward, I will take my vow to WordPress. It is hard to say anymore good bye. But some things are meant to be change.

From now on, yellowandred will be taking a new home. A proud new home called:

http://uncletivo.wordpress.com

For friends who already made links/blogroll for my blog on http://yellowandred.diaryland.com, please kindly change the address to this one. I’ll be still writing as the same person with the same passion with maybe a less of rambling. Will be looking forward to see you guys on my new home, and for later probably with real living room :)

Skimming on 2010, for me I was tremendously devastated. This year was the darkest time on my whole life. The worst even. A black hole that consuming your whole soul. Good byes are hard, tough as steel. It cuts, making bath blood on ground. But people just have to walk on, continue to live afterwards. So, I live.

It is weird when you have to experience the highest and the lowest point of your life in one packed of a year. On the first couple of months of 2010, I was the king. I got children, friends, best friend, everything. I even consider myself as the wealthiest person alive, having all the joy in the world, the only joy that matters.

Then I experienced first good bye, my friends were leaving, graduating. April 2010 was the first time, giving flower to people I do hope to laugh forever in daily basis. Now, I have to accept the fact that they’re making friends with somebody I don’t know, getting busy with paperwork and stuff. They got job, scholarship, living elsewhere. Sometimes when they miss me, they will put some status on their facebook or wrote on my wall or texted me or phoned me. But I know it will be hard to simply hugged them and tell them the jokes I used to make of.

On the same April, I waved another good bye. To all those good years, to my family that I’ve been proud of. Leaving all the laugh, smile, and jokes that still going on. I missed a lot of people there, who I believe still living the best of their (more to come) years ahead. I’ve been enjoying too much of becoming your parents, friends, and stuff. Then it all paid off, I was badly crying, hugging people one by one. Saying good bye becoming a Fungsionaris.

June was even harder. I said good bye to the bestest friend I’ve ever had. The most loving and caring person stepping on earth. We’ve been walking on rainbow for some years, but some things weren’t meant to be. Something that I don’t believe for all those years, it suddenly comes up all true. Things that complicated do exist, and I took a fall.

July is still hard. I failed to graduate on time, so I said good bye to many soul mates. To be honest, I cracked down though I try to write cards and put my biggest smile for them. Still, I handed some flowers and took pictures. Having friends is nice, knowing they’re leaving is sad.

On October, I was saying good bye to the greatest place I’ve ever been. The place that have given me so much lesson to learn on. The place that have nurtured me to grow up. I’ve missed the city, so much that I remember the smell of the ground after rain. How I walk across them and fall in love with the sunshine. The trees, the food, the humble weekdays, and the crowded weekend.

The two remaining months was hardest. Denying, confusing, accusation, depression, everything. It is like you put all the pain in the world, grinding it to become one pill. I swallowed it and trapped under spell. Though like I said, I had to continue to live.

Yet, tomorrow is always another day. I believe every people deserve happiness, even the wickest people alive. I found myself then, the end of 2010, unemployed, devastated, still with no dreams planned of 2011, brainless. The thing is I just want to be happy.

I just wrote several miserable paragraphs, but yeah, 2010 have gotten me some miracles. Some, which I wish will last.

2011 is coming fast, and I’m saying another good bye. To 2010.To the year which thought me all those great bad ass lessons and to find that in the end, I’m still that person—the wicked witch. I want to skip things, fast forwarding times. Truth is, I don’t have that remote control. Never have, never will. For that, I send good bye. May next year becomes a happier year than ever.

Cheers to the new year :)