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Yaah, tidak lebih baik dari merawat tanaman perdu :P

Yesterday, yeah. Yesterday was February 14^th, and surprisingly, tiring. I mean, that was mean. Holding a test until 6 p.m. and giving a break for prayer at 5.30 p.m. I know people seriously need that job, and willing to do anything for that test. But, that just mean. I was upset actually for the entire test, the 1 p.m. test was delayed until one hour later. Boo~ Fortunately, I returned home safely at 8.40 p.m. And trying to stay awake, hoping to watch the re-run of Grammy Awards, but then failed to resist the pillow-comfort-attack :P

Yesterday was the day that people believe by Valentine’s Day. But I don’t mind the day, the fact is I celebrated the February 14^th as the birthday of my two precious people. My little sister, Ivy Febrianti Putri and my best friend, Megarini Hersaputri were celebrated their birthday yesterday.

My little sister waited to cut the cake until all the family member is completed. Because I came home too late yesterday, she cut her 17^th birthday cake today! Yes, she will have her own KTP :P

It’s does look like: “Harry Birthday Ny” -___- (doh).

Then we enjoyed a really tasty seafood lunch.

And then, I ordered this k.e.d journal for Mega since one month ago. I was thankful for the fact that she texted me yesterday and said she loved it. Hoping that you’ll do many great things with that :D The various cloth cover of k.e.d 12-month-journal series is an eye candy, everybody will surely love it. Even Diana Rikasari also has the copy of this journal. So, visit k.e.d to have your own copy.

The image is courtesy of k.e.d.

Though I always keep on smiling and try to hear Katy Perry’s Fireworks, the last weeks were so frustrated for me. I know things are going to get harder after this, and I thought I was ready. The pressure was so tight and it is the only time I wish I could Apparate like Harry. But luckily, I got my escape.

I walked on a trip. Trying to find out what’s there to left. Trying to find myself and all the reason why I still trying to take my idealism. Sometimes, I thought I got my answers, but then I re-run it again and found those are just reasons I made up. Then, I let myself contemplating. Through the fresh air and the slow people. Looking to bus schedule and some maps. Photographing charcoal.

Some say, people is never satisfied about what they have. But I found myself here, check listing none of above statement. I’ve never complained about the jammed Jakarta, or the heat of the street, the amount of sweat I have to endure, the crowded public transport (known as Kopaja/Metro :P). I’ve never get jealous about anybody’s salary, or the (famous) company they got into. I’ve always find myself thankful about everything I have, but then, I guess it’s never enough to compress the stress.

I know I’m still trying to catch the glimpse of distance future. But I just want to remember this laugh, this smile, and this moment. I want to enjoy today. I don’t care about anybody’s judgement, yeah (I wish) I don’t care about others.

Random shot, random people, random passanger’s hand, tapi minumnya tetap teh botol Sosro kotak :P

Btw, I recommend The Green Hornet. Though RottenTomatoes only gives them 46%, Gondry’s magical touch is not faded at all. It’s still laughable, lovable, and surely enjoyable. Review is here! Gosh, finally I write another review :D

Last week, when I got bored on my first day of internship, I made a tumblelog called ‘Hundred Reasons‘. I list down all the reason why I fall in love with someone. Things don’t matter, things do matter. But there’s a hesitation when I started the list. Does the list just something that I made out? To count down, moments? I know that moments is something that we better kept alone. Because the feeling of the moments remain, merrier than the one you share with anybody else. Then again, I keep questioning myself. Do I really need reason? Like to care about something, to love someone.

For an example. My first flower, which came at July 2010. You know, I pretty much believe that I want flower, like every girl does, but do I /need/ flower? I never liked it anyway. Like I said some couple of time, they all will be withered and die. Do you need something that’s not ever last? Then again, I keep questioning about those cliché phrase. The Rolling Stones song.

You can’t always get what you want

But if you try sometimes you might find

You get what you need

Then I shot the idea down. I deleted the tumblelog, I stop the list. I’ve came down to the conclusion that I don’t need such foolish reason to really care about something.

The wants and the needs. Lately, question keep pops up through my head.  Do I really want to be white collar workers? Do I want a 7 to 5 routine? The need is tighter day by day, and test after test. Well, pretty much pressure from parents and friends. Last night, I got another phone call-another invitation. But this time, I feel fire. Something that I haven’t felt for a couple of times. So, let’s see what tomorrow brings. I believe, I have destiny to be fulfilled, now is the time to find myself. And yeah, I don’t really need good luck. Just some little pray ;)