The Waiting Game

This waiting room holds the biggest number of people. All waits in nervousness, ready to be called. It’s a raffle by the way. So we don’t know whose turn will be next.

The staff pulls one number every 5 minutes and it’s been a while since we’ve been here. I don’t know about the guy at the back, he seems furious and may explode anytime. Some people start to cry. The couple by the window cries the hardest and looks like they run out of the air.

Will that happen to us? Sooner or later? This tiredness, the anxiousness, and the sadness. All pileup, a mixture of an uncomfortable feeling.

Of waiting for the hope to come.

 

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These Words

The power of internet had brought me to read Neil Gaiman’s essays long before I read one of his books. In an essay called All Books Have Genders, Gaiman wrote an interesting take on how to see and perceive a story. I wonder if my writings have one.

I wrote a lot of fictional stories before, in short passages, or a pretty much longer one. But do they even have common threads, other than written by the same person?

They rarely take a female’s perspective. They talk romance in a non-romantic way. Do they even have feelings?

Do I even have feelings?

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Berhati-Hati Dalam Memilih Vendor Bisnis

Dalam berbisnis, pasti ada kalanya kita mengalami pasang surut dan good day or bad day. Hari ini, saya mau share sedikit tentang pengalaman dengan salah satu vendor printing kain ketika menjalankan Kawung Living. Saya dan Liza sudah pernah mencoba menggunakan jasa beberapa vendor printing kain selama beberapa tahun ini. Dari mulai pilihan vendornya terbatas, sampai sekarang mulai menjamur. Mulai dari pilihan kainnya masih sedikit banget, sampai sekarang macam-macam jenisnya. Ada yang memang mengecewakan, tapi ada juga yang sampai saat ini selalu menjadi partner yang bisa diandalkan (kami bahkan selalu dapat diskon loyalty setiap pesan di sana).

Tahun 2017 ini, kami mencoba menggunakan kain organik sebagai tambahan dari kain polyester yang biasa kami gunakan. Alasannya karena kami kurang puas dengan hasil jadi kain polyester seperti satin silk polyester untuk bahan Scarf karena terlalu licin dan kurang merepresentasikan bahan kerudung yang biasa kami gunakan. Selain itu, menggunakan kain organik juga bisa membuat kami lebih lega dan tidak was-was untuk mengeluarkan produk-produk lain untuk bayi karena ada beberapa customer yang mengaku bahwa anaknya alergi dengan beberapa kain polyester. Sebelumnya, kami pernah menggunakan kain bersetifikasi organik merek Cloud9, tapi sayangnya kain-kain tersebut harus kami impor (kami punya supplier di Singapura) dan makin lama, makin sulit didapatkan di Indonesia.

Kamipun memutuskan untuk mencari vendor lokal yang bisa memproduksi kain organik sesuai keinginan sehingga nantinya kami bisa memberikan harga yang lebih kompetitif dan tidak memberatkan customer. Pencarian ini sebenarnya masih tergolong sulit karena tidak banyak vendor yang mampu memenuhi permintaan tersebut. Kebanyakan vendor kain organik yang ada hanya mau memenuhi order partai besar yang biasanya dimulai dari printing minimal 500 meter. Untuk retail kecil seperti kami, jumlah minimal tersebut masih tergolong sangat besar dan membutuhkan modal yang belum bisa kami penuhi.

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Modern Minimalism

Once in a while, I always paid a visit to bookstores to get updates of what books recently went out. I know I have no extra budget allocated on books, but I make sure to save up to get some books that I really want. One of the books that caught my eyes recently is a book titled Goodbye, Things: On Minimalist Living by Fumio Sasaki. When I read the word ‘minimalist’ on top of its cover, I thought, oh is it another Marie Kondo kind of thing? Though I haven’t read Kondo’s book, I get a glimpse of what she’s trying to do because EVERYBODY was talking about it.

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Here It Comes

For the first time in my life,
I don’t have anything written on my to-do list.

Because I realized,
I don’t really know what would happen tomorrow.

More than any time,
this is highlighting that I really cannot have control of anything.

Sometimes my heart races,
really scared about what comes next.

Sometimes I panic,
because I cannot promise anything.

It seems that I missed out a lot of things,
but this is me trying hard not to miss something else.

I need time to process it and grasp it bit by bit,
but time won’t wait for me.

And here I am,
trying to breath deeper.

Calming myself,
by songs I cannot hear.

Beating down by the sound of the racing heart.